My life from that moment has become one of a continuous honoring of myself. Discovering and exploring the darkness so that I can find the light. I’ve spent the past six years healing and always reminding myself, that I am not alone. My twenties were challenging, beautiful, expansive, and full of the greatest lessons. Many of those lessons I’ll share below.

I’ve noticed during this past week, that I have more on my plate. We are preparing for guests in our home, travels in the near future, turning 30 next month, and big shifts to Simply Bare,  I’ve been picking up my phone more. Instead of focusing that energy on completing the task, I am numbing. I am avoiding that to-do list, thinking unconsciously if I don’t do it, it might not stress me out. Yet in reality, by not facing it I am becoming more stressed. 

I cannot believe I am typing this… I am feeling nervous about being out of limbo. In this place of the unknown, I’ve found peace, joy, and appreciation for feeling present. Yet it’s all becoming very real that we are leaving this space. As we head into Kyle’s appointment tomorrow, and then another on April 4th, These will lead us into this next phase.

In January of 2021, Kyle called me while I was sitting with the women inside Root Home. He knew I was sitting for tea ceremony and I knew something wasn’t right. I got up, took the call, and in a matter of moments my stomach sank, and my life changed forever. Kyle’s cancer had returned.

It is a constant place of the unknown. We truly have no control over the outcome. We, humans, want control… control that isn’t actually available to us. I’ve sat in that place this past year, learning how I can be HERE, in the present moment, right now.

Meeting tea was the most pivotal experience of my life thus far. My life changed and started to form into the life I had dreamed of.  She has been the greatest teacher and my new way of life. She has forced me out of my comfort zone and brought me back to my true nature.